Dream Journal 11/19/2013 (I Dreamed of Her)
I finally had a dream about her. Well, it was not actually automatically about her. It was more like a series of attached dreams where on the final dream, it was about her. The scene was in school. I saw her seating on a corner with Yngrid. She looked quiet and sad. I tried grabbing her attention by waving at her. When she glanced to where I was, she waved back. I asked her if she was ok. She just smiled and nods her head. I asked again if she was sure. She made a so-and-so gesture. By the way, there was no sound, we were talking through lip reading. Finally, I could not take it anymore; I stood up and walked towards her. Yngrid stood up to give some privacy. At the same time, she stood up as well. So there we were, both standing up. I was looking into her eyes, something I have never really done in real life with her, when suddenly she hugged me not to tightly but somewhat like she felt exhausted and sick of something that she just want something or someone to hold her steady. At the same time, I hugged her back. After that I held us closer to each other while saying to her that everything is going to be ok. Our foreheads touched, and as before I was about to kiss her forehead, the alarm went off.
This was one of the most realistic, dreams that I have ever had. It felt so real. Maybe because I wanted to hold her and tell her that everything will be fine. I wanted her to a little more positive about the things that are happening to her. Those things that I wanted to tell her that I can’t are materializing as dreams to me which made me realize that I do cherish her and I want to protect and help her anyway possible that I can.